Charlie Brown's cartoons were nothing but right! i mean, when they wanna talk to us, who really wanna listen? hope no one! they always talk about the same! is like they have no theme for conversation, actually is not a conversation, is a monologe!(dont know if thats right..when they talk alone and never listen)
-hey son, i wanna talk to you.. NO!!!!! they dont wanna talk with you!!! they wanna give you a speech about something you did! (good of bad.. it doesnt matter!!.. but if is something good they make it look bad! and if were bad they make you feel so bad about it!!) or they wanna share with you something they think, honestly i dont care anymore what they think! unless is not about me..
All my life i listen NO word out of them, really! they speak but i was somewere else! it was so bad that i dont remember any speech of them.. and because of that i share nothing personal about me to them! i always thoug that was how is sopouse to be!! But great surprice i get when i realice it was not natural !!
Anyway in last 4 years the things that come out of every parent i know (mines and my friend's) is this: They open the mounth for one of these three reason.. sometimes changes the order of importance but the effect is the same
-Give advice.. yes! like good parents they are they wanna instruct us! in other words... TELL US WHAT TO DO WITH OUR LIFE!!! yes... without them we wouldnt be here but come on!!! i wasnt wanted!! i was and accident!! my alcoholic F could have childrens after his 35 cuz didnt work(yes, the alcohol didnt let him) then he was dying! stopped drinking for a couple years and then.. waula!!! here i am!, i just couldnt believe my F when he say how happy he was having me! And i know why! when i was 2 years old he cheated on my mother and have an other child! (find out about that last summer) i dont really wanna talk about my M but... she left 16 months! (i know it cuz really damage my F. and he counted them, im gonna talk about that later) then they get divorse, at less they are trying,.. well my F. Remember the bastard(the other child)? well.. he is now living with his mother and giving them everything they never have.. he said that, but all they want is his money and he always gave them. My M do not want the divorse cuz she still wanna live with my F, i have no idea what is in their head and i dont wanna know! they make a mess their life and of curse ours.. but just cuz they are olders have the idea that what they say to us is better and good for our future!.. SURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-talk about themselves. Lucky for all of us seem to be only one that do that, and the other never do it(may be good, may be not, depends i guess) i M couldnt take it any longer, my F never left that whore, sorry, teacher, that he has a bastard with, so she left ALONE! not with her lil kids!! (me 18, my sis 24) okey not lil but still we also wanted to leave, my sis already did and she is so happy about it!. not only that, my M have to leave for 16 months to the other side! not the other side of the wall(to the states) but to the other side of the lil lake(europe) germany actually, i officially hate that country. how that make me fell? i have no idea! i never talk about that with my F, he was to bussy with his new, not wait old!, no but new.. ah whatever¬¬ with the bastard and the whore.. and also was really occupy thinking in all the damage my M did to him! You stupid old MAN!! you cheat on her and espect to be your slave forever??? I just remember my F crying drunk as bloody heck! saying.. im suffering so much!! can you see!!? yeah i see it, im fine thanks for asking!
Thats my personal experience, the worse is his cousing of third generation... my bff mother! im not talking about her selfish and stupid adtitud! all i have to say is this... SHUT UP! but i cant say that, cuz im going to make her suffer, and them she would yell at me and start talking for hours about all her misery!
-MONEY! - I'm poor, - i have no money!- i need to sell the house! - the money is not enough for me... and the list of phrases about the lack of money goes forever! its endless, sadly they only repeat the sameones... it really doesnt matter wich one they use.. they all have the same effect...
A house 2 floors: 2.3 million of pesos ( on sale )
A working track: No idea but got sold
A luxury car : 100 thousand pesos (on sale)
A Brand new house (get it for my M then rented) : thinking on traspass it
Money Problem : Priceless and Endless!!!
Yes!! they all have money isues, but when are they going to stop smoking?? that stupid think almost kill me! cost over 100 pesos daily and yet.. cant stop smoking!( a childish trauma that never got over it and ended in that adiction) the sad part is that they are going to kill everyone around them smoking before they get cancer¬¬. Or what about alcohol? no idea how much they can spend on drinks, i just know that is a lot!, LOTS!! Or whores??? i wonder in wich one they spend more.. okey not really wonder that, his last whore gave him a bastard and now he feel like a good father for him and wanna sustain that house too.. IF YOU DONT HAVE MONEY, OUR THE BLOODY HECK YOU CAN AFFORT TRAVELS TO US AND TWO FAMYLIES!!???? of curse they cant, thats why he dont wanna pay anything for us anymore...
So.. why we whouldnt just listen BLAH when they are talking, is more educative that those 3 matter! there are more but.. i would not sleep if i keep talking about all of them and explain every lil detail.. think about your parents and tell me... do you really listen to them?? you should NOT!! all they are doing is our life miserable, let us with a huge trauma hard to get over it, and them tell us how useless we are and proclaim is our own foul! cuz they are so perfect ¬¬
BLAH......BLAHBLAH......BLAHBLAH ... if we were in charlie brown cartoon, we would only hear that... how sweet that sounds??? =D
Ornshaw: Some people are winners and some people are losers.
ResponderEliminarDaniel: Who says who's gonna be what?
Ornshaw: Don't ask me, that's all done before we get on this earth. I mean, it's him up there. He says, "You, you're gonna be red-hot at the triple jump, and you, you're gonna be bloody useless!"
That's from the movie Melody(1971)
I think is funny and so true! We all feel like bloody useless and like we can't do something about it cause that's the way God wanted it, and I think our parents think the same. Let's prove them wrong! We can do much better than bloody useless hehe
I also hate how they call us useless but they're never admit they had a lot to do with our being useless. How can we accept our errors if they don't even dare to accept we're a mess because of them? I need an example to follow otherwise i'll follow britney spears example and I'd shave my head and hit people with an umbrella as my way to get rid off all my stress.
ResponderEliminarsound like a nice idea =D!!! bloody useless parents..
ResponderEliminarwow.. i am .. speechless
ResponderEliminarsounds like a very tough life so far, but.. I get to see only good sides of you josue and that makes you the awesome person you are.
In my case, my parents have hurt me as much as they've loved me. I couldnt imagine myself in your situation or altairs. You got my respect. I am truly touched by all of this. And man.. I only wish the best for you, and Im sure Jah will provide. He wont let go off you.
it was not only about me, i was actually trying to talk in general, but mostly my experience but altair's one also, her mom i my dad are about the same.. same family, same personality issues.
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